heee...just spent half an hr on the phone with one of my fav friends..MAT!! hahaah..laughed quite a bit...turns out he's studying in NS now..poor boy...seems like he'll have a lot of things to study..respiration and the heart and muscles and stuff...gees...studying is not exactly his favourite past-time..but i'm sure he'll get by. haha..the lovely phone conversation ended rather abruptly though...when one of his bunk mates tried to talk to me. i actually felt cornered. sheesh...then mat hurriedly said bye...
at times i feel like i'm going crazy....christmas doesn't really feel like christmas..i don't feel much joy this year..my mind is a mess..my heart is hanging off a cliff..my emotions have been allowed to run wildly..and i've been most grumpy recently..as a result of all of the above...boo to that...
this christmas..i want laughter to re-enter my life...real deepfelt laughter..and i want fats to leave my life..that's not too much to ask for right?
i hate the way i feel about you..so many things i don't understand..i wanna steer the wheel in my life...but right now...i feel more like a passenger..without control on how fast you take me wherever you're taking me..i want to be in control...
